I want to sell things in the house to raise some money. We have an eight thousand dollar piano that is in great condition that we could sell, but my grandparents are adamant about not letting it go. That's four grand given back or something like that, because it's in great condition. We could get a lot for it. But they are doing sentimentality over smartness. We have two dining tables that we could sell, because they only use one anyway in the kitchen. We also have two fridges that are still in great condition. We could sell one. But again, they won't sell them.

So because they're being idiots, I'm going to be smart and sell my own stuff. I'm going to sell my bean bag. It's gigantic. I'm also going to sell my bookcase, my TV case, my TV. I'll sell my mirror, sell some books, sell some DVDs, sell some stuffed animals, clothes, pawn some of my jewelry, you name it.

Does anyone here know about the price of old newspapers? What I mean is that my grandfather has collected newspapers from 1959 -- the death of the Big Bopper, Buddy Holly and Richie Valens -- to modern day. I will search the garage for them, and I want to sell them to someone, somewhere. Does anyone know the process for that?

I'll also search the garage the rest of the week for some other stuff to sell. There's a lot there that needs to be cleaned out. Now isn't the time for sentimentality, being a rat-pack and stuff. Now is the time to let go of material things so we can survive. I just don't know how to put that into my grandparents minds. My mom is willing to work with me on this. I'll go through her things to sell as well-- the only thing being that my mom doesn't have much to sell. My sister probably won't cough up anything. The grandparents think I'm being insane. My mom thinks I'm being smart.

I still don't have a job. Some guy that I don't like has the job that I wanted. Y'know that? And he's better off, and he has a mom and a dad, and a secure paid off house, and everything handed to him. And me, I have to work for it. I keep applying day in and day out, and I can't even get an overnight job where I do inventory. Everyone wants permanent, not temporary here. How the fuck am I supposed to pay off things when I don't have anything?

Anyone have any advice to give me? I'll be needing a job when I get back to DC too, though it's probably more beneficial if I get an internship instead, but they don't pay. I don't know what to do you guys. We really, really didn't need this. I no longer have any health insurance, dental insurance, eye insurance, nothing. It's gone. Mom's probably going to die because she can't afford her drugs now, nor can she find out if she has anal cancer or not, and I can't find out what's wrong with my eyes or my back. We're fucked, plain and simple. Simply and truly fucked. I just want to sell the things that are worthy of money, so we can pay off the bills in time and so I can get a flight affordable back to DC. I NEED to go alone this time-- mom can't come with me to move in stuff. No money.

The good thing is that my last scholarship money is coming in August of two thousand something. That'll last me the year. We'll go from there. I just really really didn't need this right now, whatsoever. Not at all.